The baby is finally here! And what timing!!
I first held him in my hands on 11th August. The same day I last saw his dad 3 years ago. I think he timed it. He was due on 8th Sep, but came almost a month early. Maybe he knew I needed to smile again on this date. Maybe Gaurav is finally back to me.
It’s been a long time coming, and a lot of sweat, blood, and tears have been shed to get him here. But all that doesn’t matter now. I’m at peace when I hold him, snuggle with him, and watch him sleep.
It’s a start of a new journey when I have to learn to be a mom – and a single one at that. I’m expecting a lot of trial and error; experimentation and learning; and a lot of dependence on ancient wisdom.
It was a strange feeling, holding him in my arms – a tiny, fragile thing; so trusting. And now i’m responsible for how he turns out. It’s terrifying – yet somehow I know I can do it. The fact that I am a mom overnight is taking some time to sink in. The surrogacy procedure did not give me the 9 months to adjust to the new arrival. But in hindsight – it was a good decision. It made sure he came back to me.
I’m not getting in to the logistics – how we managed at the hospital, how we got back home, how i’m completely broke after all the expenses. What matters is that my baby is home 🙂
Let project #BeingMommy begin.
To new adventures 🙂